12:05am
Lesson number one:
Nothing belongs to us here, except the breath of G-d as long as he allows us to have it. Therefore, our focus must be on breath. One breath at a time. We must choose what emotion is inside of our hearts when we breathe.
My daughter, you always wanted to give your children beautiful Home, what is stopping you now? You have a house and children; make your Home beautiful.
It does not matter where your children are. You cannot be separated from them.
Right now, you need to do the best with what you have. I am going to help you clean your house and direct you to your next step.
Right Now -Take a shower, cook dinner, do laundry, clean, clean, clean. You made too much of a mess, clean it up.
Go, do it, and breathe.
8:28pm
Note : Before my son left, he had laundry that was not done. It was sitting in the garage next to the laundry machines. I would not dare to touch it! After being visited my Mother… I did his laundry for the last time. On my own – I would not be able to do it. For sure.
Not possible . At that the time – Not a chance. Or clean his room for the matter. There is not words that can say what it took me to do so.
Only those who had to do the same will understand. It were more fallen tears then particles of dust on the floor in his room. That is all I can say.
However, unexpectedly, my son came to speak with me , he told me that he appreciated the fact that I did his laundry and cleaned his room. He also understood how hard it was for me. If I knew that it mattered to him – it would be done long time ago!Then he said following : Mom….Even Divine Mother came to you. I can come to speak to you because we are fortunate that you can hear me. Therefore, my dearest mom, let’s focus on what we can do and what we can still have. We can not bring back things that are not there anymore. That is life and we must learn to accept that. I trust you and that you have a will to understand it and accept this. I am going to help you. You don’t understand how proud I am of you and the fact you are my mom. I love you so much and I will always be right next to you. Don’t worry.
Try to do what Divine Mother said. She is helping you and helping me, but remember that we must help ourselves too.
I understand that Trust is a very complicated thing, that is why I gave you the Zero Degree of Deviation Theory. It’s very important for you to stick with it.
She, Divine Mother, has a plan for you and will take care of you. She has taken you under her wings. She will be teaching and guiding you.
Mom, remember you are not alone. There are so many souls and spirits that are watching you at this time. Everyone around you is trying to help you. Just wait and you will see the situation start to turn around.
We are not leaving you. I am not abandoning you. I only hope that you can feel my presence around you, mom.
Remember, I am always around you. I see and hear everything.
Go to sleep mom, I will safeguard you. I love you!