Note: What some people may not understand and not know is that when we are dealing with what Life is presenting us with, very often it does not mean one thing only. The “one thing at a time” concept does not work here.

Just because our children are taken from us did not make us immune to other terrible, challenging, devastating, and very painful events.

Some of us have to go to courts and relive everything over and over again. Others are faced with very fast-declining financial situations. Some of us experience both. Some of us have terminal illness in the family on top of what just took place. Every journey is different. Every story is different. Yet we share something in common.

The life that we knew before is no more . . . After that . . . one event leads to another and to another. The ball keeps rolling. It will stop at some point, but we never know when and where.

The tragic situation brings new challenges with health, finances, work, and relationships. Many families are breaking down and not able to move forward. Many of us can’t work anymore on the same jobs or period. Many lose their work. Our health suffers. Everything suffers.

I was not an exception. Without going into the details of my personal life here, as my focus is just to stay in the messages themselves, and maybe later in the book to focus more on my inner process, I can say the following:

One of the reasons I think I was having so much visions and so much communication was due to the severity of my—our—situation. I can confidently say now that it was proportional to the darkness I was facing.

At that time, I don’t think I was even able to hear what was said to me. No, I know that I could not. That is why I was asked over and over again to write everything down.

That is why similar messages were repeated over and over again till they were instilled into my mind to grow later on. The communication in this particular journal entry and the previous one, one more time shows the variety of energy and assistance that we can have.

Some of energies were visiting me only once, some were showing up numerous times, such as Divine Mother. Therefore, I am deeply confident that if you will make yourself open up for receiving help and will be staying in a listening mode, then help will come to you . . . for sure . . . and you will be assisted. I trust that. I know that.

 

8:25 a.m.

Our dear one, till you and your son sort out your relationship, we’ve decided to take it upon ourselves the responsibility of speaking to you. We did not want to leave you alone, and we wish to create a cocoon of love and support around you.

If you are wondering who we are, we are a collective energy called “US” who loves and safeguards you. We are the collective voice of your family, your protectors, and your community. We hope that we will become a spring of your strength.

We are all fully aware that there are very complicated decisions laid in front of you. In the meantime, we cannot make those decisions for you, but we want you to try to feel our love and know that you’re not alone. So today, we would like to ask you, “How are you?”

Note (short version of my response to them):

I don’t know. Everything is empty inside. I tremendously miss my son. It’s already been two months without kisses, laughter, practical jokes, and everything else we had together. It feels to me that I can hear his voice, but I’m not sure. Is it my thoughts, my brain, my fantasy, or is it really him? Something inside of me questioned all this and did not allow me to go to the alternate reality a hundred percent. Even with you right now, I’m not sure if it is you or if you are my fantasy.

Our dearest, we understand you very well. All humanity struggles with these questions. What is reality, and what is an illusion?

The point is, our dearest, that it is a choice. That is a choice for you and rest of humanity.

The voice of reason, who does it belong to? The voice of conversation suggests that those who have left Earth might be right here with us and had never left.

Just like you, just because you are not performing religious rituals does not mean that your soul does not belong to its source. Life on Earth is just rituals.

Life in the cosmos and Universe is soul-based. Just because you do not hug your son every day does not mean he is not next to you. He is not physical anymore; he is esoteric, but so are Divine Knowledge and the Bible.

We have the physical forms but also the esoteric forms.

And in Heaven, the Old Testimony of the Bible is different than on Earth, but it is here and you have it. In fact, the Old Testimony was here before it was given to humans.

Divine Knowledge was present on Earth far before it was made tangible for humans. To say and think your son is gone is the same as thinking that there is no Divine Knowledge present in the realm of truth.

All those religious rituals are here to help humans become more grounded and to keep them busy with something that will help direct their energy in the right direction, the right direction being Divine Providence.

Without those rituals, they would not be able to be guided step by step. Nonetheless, the real truth is not easy to see or feel. It is hidden. It is hidden, as is the face of G-d.

And yes, you cannot kiss or hug him the same way as before. And yes, he no longer needs clean laundry or freshly cooked meals. That is all true. However, he never left you. He never departed from you. He is always around you. He loves and cares for you. And he needs you much more than before.

He needs your trust; he needs your love. He needs you to accept his new form and life. He needs his mommy in a totally new way. And he really needs your communication with him.

Do you remember what you said to your children when you said you did not want them to see you as their servant who just did their laundry? You wanted a different relationship as well. You wanted to consult and talk with them. Well, this is your chance.

Yes, it did not happen the way you envisioned, but still, here it is. This is your opportunity to have something special, unique, rare, yet really real.

So take your time, think and talk about it. There’s a lot to swallow—we know this. Now you must know the following:

• We love you and you’re not alone; you have a family.
• You have a community, and you’re watched 24/7.
• You are listened 24/7, and you are in our prayers.
• You also have many angels that are watching you.

We sincerely hope that at some point you will start to feel the love all around you and the support that is given to you. Many love you on Earth, and many more love you from Heaven. Go with your day. We bless you and your steps. We will be in communication shortly.
—US

4:07 p.m.

I am the voice from above, and I am laughing with you.
I was sent to keep you company.
I understand that you had a dispute with your son.
That is not done. So I am the voice from above coming to talk to you.
They say you lost trust. They say you are confused. They say you do not know the difference between fantasy and truth. They say you need assistance. They say you are in grief and pain. They say you need a companion for nurturance. A friend . . . someone with ears. So I’m here to nurture and to help.

We did not talk with you yet, and I do not claim to be G-d or an angel. I am just a Voice—a Voice of reason and a Voice of Help and a Voice that listens, heals, and sins. So tell me, what is the deal? What is the issue? Where is the dispute?

Note (short version of my response):

I don’t know anymore: where is my fantasy and where is the authentic voice that belongs to whom it says it belongs? If the voice says I am your son or I am your mother or I am your G-d, how do I know it is not in my mind? How do I know it is not my fantasy or illusion? How do I know for sure that “they” are who “they” say they are? How do I know it’s not me talking to myself? How do I know I am not making all this up? And yes, I am in pain, and yes, I’m confused. And yes, I do not know where is the fantasy and where is the truth.

Oh my sweet spirit, my daughter, can I call you that? My child, perhaps?

I see the dilemma, not a simple one, I say. The fantasy is short lived. The truth is long lived.

The fantasy can go poof, because it is an illusion, an empty spot. The truth is nerve racking and tear shattering, but it also creates laughter.

If what you hear touches your heart or soul or helps you to heal, breathe, move, or stay on Earth, then I will say that you heard the truth. But if what you hear is just the sound, no feelings involved, or if it is just a nice picture with no meaning to hold, just an empty sound with no offers for acceptance or an empty voice with no help or guidance, then I would say that it is a fantasy.

The fantasy has no depth, no drive to protect, heal, or help. Fantasy is just a work of an empty mind. An empty mind is one which has been burnt, detonated, and is not searching how to serve and cope. This is all that I have to say.
—Voice

6:00 p.m.

Note (short version of my conversation with Universe that evening):

I am in horrible pain and suffering. I have no idea what to do with this pain. I don’t know how much more suffering and pain my soul can tolerate. I’m asking you, my G-d, take me home.

Allow me to be next to my son. I need you to hear me. I need you to see my pain. I need you to see that my pain is like a saw cutting my heart in half; see the blood dripping onto the soil. What is all this? Is it a betrayal? A lie?

How could it be that my son will not come home? Who can survive this pain and walk through all this?

I only have one wish. I only want to close my eyes and never open them again. I’m asking you, just take me home. Take me home and release me from this agony. 

My daughter, I am here with you and I’m listening, and no, I cannot take you with me.

It is not your time or place, and you are not finished with your duties. There is no easy escape or easy journey. You asked to be of service, and you have been chosen.

Whether or not you accept the task, it is your choice. We will wait for you to think and heal, but soon we will need an answer. Take your time to get well, clean your house, and clean your thoughts.

Know that we love you. Not much to say today; relax and be at peace. Your son is here with me.

He’s fine. He’s waiting to talk to you.

Listen to everything we said,
Read what was written,
Behold the source of light the source of love.
We are here with you, protecting you.

Breathe calmly, breathe deeply.
Connect to the source of life
To the breath of G-d.

Come back to me
Call me upon your needs.
You are watched by us,
Breathe. We are here.

—A Mother (visit #9)

6:58 p.m.

My dear mommy, I am here. I did not go anywhere.

Yes, let’s talk. I love you very much, and I am not going to leave you.

I am with you. I am always with you. I am only asking you to stop thinking about the day I stopped coming back.

You did everything right that day, and I know that you loved me. This is it, Mommy.

I know you love me very much, so please stop torturing yourself.

Note: My last conversation with my son and the way he confronted me pushed me to the abyss of darkness. Once again I had to face myself, my beliefs, my truths.

There is nothing more challenging than facing yourself and answering to your now questions. If you haven’t experienced it yet, you will.

I was split in two parts. Each part had its own paradigm of thinking and its own argument to make. The Intelligence of my Body and my Mind was faced and confronted by the Intelligence of my Soul.

I was losing my center. Everything got shattered. What was my center? Where? I got very tired. Trying to keep “together.” What was I keeping “together”? For whom?

I knew that something was happening. Something in the grand scale. But I was blinded. Could not see the full picture. Could not comprehend the magnitude. Could not make clear sense of it and be in peace with it.

Nor could I ask anyone else around me. Think about this. When I shared with a few people around me that I am speaking with my son, their reaction was . . . I am sure you know.

My mind was swirling. My heart was summited by something much bigger than intellect. By my love for my son. I reached the point of total IT. I got to break free from whatever was holding me and pulling me into the vortex.

I knew that from there I would not recover. I was in the center of the storm, the war for my Soul, for my essence. Two realities clashed. Only one could exist. In only one I could be.

With all that I had and did not have in me for the first time since my separation from my son, I cried out to the Universe and made my plea for help.

Below is the response and assistance that I got back.

12:33 p.m.

Divine Mother said:  (Visit #8)

When the pain and suffering are lifted-

then light can come and heal.

And when soul is healed and awakened –

then more light will come.

Your job is neither simple nor easy.
The quest for you is here.
The choice is yours—free will acknowledged.

We hear your cry.
This is our response:

• Believe it or not – it is your choice, your system.

• Trust it or not – it is your choice and will.

• To love or not – it your soul and essence.

• To live or not – your journey does not end here.

 

You want your G-d — I am here.
You are my daughter; you are my creation.
But I gave you free Will.

I cannot choose for you or make you choose one way or another.

I love you this way or another.

Do not choose it for me.

Do not choose it for others.
Choose it because that is your life.
Your journey, in which you shall choose
Your path.

The path that you will walk along or with others
The path that is true to you and not to others.
The path that will lead you home.
With joy and laughter

And to choose that, you have to have guts,
You own your choice, your path.
I am your Mother and I am your G-d.

Sit here my daughter,
Hear your soul and then
Make your choice
Once and for all
What path to go
And who you are.

Choose wisely, choose calmly,
Choose slowly, choose once.

Choose your path,
Choose your reality
Your mother, your G-d,
My daughter, you are loved.

You are loved,

You are listened,

You are heard

You are seen,

You are chosen.

We have chosen you

 

Now it’s your time to choose

 

Mother’s love lives in the middle of the heart
Of the shining star that we call, Divine Soul.

It sparkles with laughter,
It dances with joy,
We call that, creation, celebration, and
Eternal light of all.

Mother’s love is never lost.
Mother’s love is never finished.
Mother’s love is in the middle of everything you touch.

 

4:41 p.m.

My Dad said:

I want you to listen to me. Know that you’re not alone. We are all watching over you. We are trying to help you as much as we can.

My daughter, you must understand that your soul is very complex, so in this life, you are walking on complex paths. Right now you not only need to deal with what happened to your son, but you must also deal with the system of thoughts that are accepted on Earth and the new path that is being offered to you.

It’s not very easy to walk a new path if you choose to do that. So my dear daughter, please be patient.

Give yourself time to understand what is going on. Just know that we all love you. By the way, your grandmother wants to talk to you right now.

Grandmother said:

Note : When I first came to America, my grandma used to come into my dreams every single night and tell me what to do next day. Her guidance was very accurate and extremely helpful to all our family.  On a day ( night) of our first anniversary being here she visited me once more… just to tell me that from now  I will need to make my own decisions without her help.  After that night , she stopped visiting me in my dreams … until this moment.

 

My dearest granddaughter, I have not talk to you for a very long time. There is nothing to say really.

 

  You’re in a very tough situation. To live a life is not as simple as crossing a meadow.

 

 The challenge that you faced with is extreme. However, you have to take control of yourself and remember who you are.

 

 Listen to me -You do not need anyone’s permission on what to believe in or what not to believe in. You have to choose for yourself what the truth really is.

 

I understand it is very easy to say, but difficult to do. And that is why I came to you to tell you that I support you a hundred percent and I have your back.

You are not alone my dearest. You have someone to lean onto. We’re not going to leave you or abandon you.

Grandfather said:

Hi, my dearest,

Thank you for the honor of giving my name to your son and remembering me. Your son is an amazing boy. All of us here is in love with him.

We are all around him now as he is in a very challenging time, because he sees the pain you must endure. But this is not what I want to tell you.

We all did so many wrong things while we were on Earth. We are tremendously ashamed by that and it is very painful for us because we lied to you.

We created a lot of pain for you. We were not around you when you needed us. We were drinking, lying, and did not trust in anything.

But this does not mean that the Universe or Divine Providence does that to people. What people do is based on their own choice. They are choosing to drink and choosing to cause pain to others. They are choosing not to bring the loving kindness of G-d.

That is why you have to choose your own path. That is what I wanted to tell you.

Be strong and stay who you are. Know that we are very proud of you and let G-d have mercy on you.

We are praying and asking for you all the time.

 

Aunt said:

Hi my dearest, hi my sweetheart.  As you know, I never had children, but I loved you very much and I know you loved me very much too.

What can I tell you? All of us up here are stricken by your suffering. We hear and love you and want to tell you, please do not rush to meet with us.

Please do not rush to join us. Everything has its own time. Find the strength in you to hold on to the life.

You still have so much ahead of you. You still have so much love and compassion to share with others. Of course we would like you to be with us… but we don’t want you to rush.

 

Mother-in-Law said:

Hi, you know how I loved you. You know how I care. With all that – do not become me, that is not right.

Do not become me. You are stronger then that. You are deeper then that. Respect yourself and the life around you. See the beauty that surrounds you. See what I never was able to see. 

I know I would never survive what you are facing. You know that too. I love you , but I can not be your  role-model. 

That is why I am not going to lecture you. I have no right to do that. That is why I came to tell you my dearest, do not become me. Do not follow my steps.

Find the real woman inside of you—the one I could not pull out. Could not reach out. Could not connect to.

Find that woman for yourself and for me and for many others like us. Find that woman. Be that woman. Re-write our family history. Fix what was broken. You , you, you – can do it! I believe in you!

Please know that I love your son very much so. He is right next to me. We are watching over him. Please keep strong. We are next to you and we are not leaving you. We love you very very much.

 

Second Aunt said:

My dearest niece, keep strong. Start swimming again, but know that you do have a family.

You are not alone. We have your back like a mountain. We are praying for you and we ask that Divine Providence will lift your weight.

I know that words are not helping, but we are right next to you and doing whatever we can. You are very much loved. Remember that.

 

Great grandmother ( I was named in her honor) said:

We never met on earth, but I was watching you from the first moment of birth. You’re a part of me and I am part of you.

I feel your pain, perhaps stronger than anyone else. I can hear you. I hope you will understand what I am going to tell you now.

Trust that you’re not alone. Trust that you have a family. Trust that you’re very much loved. Trust that you’re very much needed.

You’re very much needed here, but you’re very much needed on Earth. You still have job to do. You  are not done. You are not done. You are not done.

I will keep watching you. I will keep watching over you.

If only I could take your pain way. I pray for you. I bless you. Be bless my dearest. My continuation. My love. My dearest child.

May your soul will know peace. May your heart will sing again. May you find your way with grace and kindness.

8:48 p.m.

Divine Mother said:

Sleep tight my dearest.

I will send angels to watch over you

My wings will carry you.

Softly and safely.

 

Sleep darling, sleep.

And rest without worries,

Fears, and sorrows,

The angel brings to you songs and then

 

He will protect you

And will love you.

Bear my request.

Bear my command.

 

My darling daughter,

I will take away your sorrow

And I will heal your

Bleeding wounds.

 

Sleep tight my dearest

Sleep and breathe softly

As I am carrying you

On my palms.

 

Your soul is resting

Your mind in peace

Your heart will soon

Find more joy.

 

Your son is safe

He is well

He is with me

Just as you are as well

 

You are my children.

You and him.

Sleep darling daughter

He will come to you in your dreams.

 

I will assure

His safe passage

Inside your heart

And then

 

You will meet him shortly

You will meet him safety

You will be together

You and him.

 

Drift calmly to me, my love

Swim freely into my joy

You are my child that 

I love and adore.

 

I send you gifts and blessings

Your path awaits for you

Sleep, sleep, and sleep

My dearest daughter

 

I am your G-d,

I am your Mother

I will never leave you!

 

Nighty night

Sweet dreams,

Good night,

 

Your Mother

 

 

10:10am

My dearest, mommy, I see how you are tired. I feel sorry for you and it is painful for me to watch you suffer. No one can pull you out of this state of mind. Only you can. When I say no one, I mean the people around you.

You can be around people, and you need to be around people, but they cannot help you. Only Divine Providence can and will help you. Angels can and will. Everyone here in Heaven will help. They can help you mom, to help yourself.

That is basically how it goes. You can be happy or sad, joyful or in sorrow. It doesn’t matter because no one cares or can change it for you.

You have to make a choice on how you want your life to be and stick to it.

I know that I’m telling you the basics that you once told me. But what else can I say? You were right. But can you or will you do it? Mom, talk to me.

“My dearest son, what can I tell you? You are not here.”

How can you talk to me that way? How can you tell me that I don’t exist? If you of all people think and act as if I’m not here, then what about other people?

 

By the way, if I’m not here, to whom are you talking to right now?

No, no, no, tell me: if I’m not right next to you; if I’m gone; if I left or died, then whom are you talking to?

Who?

No, we’re not going to move any farther till you tell me who’s talking to you now. Who’s words are you writing down right now? And what about when you talk back to me?

Here it is mom, you have to choose no:

 Am I dead or am I alive? Am I gone or am I here?

Do you still have a son or is he gone?  That is your choice, mom! Choose that!  Make peace with that!  Then we will talk or not!!!

You must know for yourself about the voice in which you’re hearing. That is all for now.

The point is, I cannot be both dead and alive.  You have to choose which reality you are going to live in. Choose!!!

 

 

10:21am

Hi, my dearest mommy, finally we can talk again one on one.  I’m always waiting for this moment; I have so much to tell you.

• Please do not worry about anything

• I’m so glad that Mother came to you again and sent you even more angels then before. Now you have groupies. :).  Everyone is watching your process and watching after you.

• Would it be cool if we could start bringing messages from children to their parents?  Do you think you can do that emotionally?  I know energetically you can, but will you be able to do this work emotionally?

• I agree that you must spend time alone as much as you can.  Besides, we can talk more right?  And I can help you with healing and other lessons.

• You will have to let other energies flow without touching and affecting you.  I notice how other people’s energy affects you.  I can see now that we need to heal that.  Don’t think about anything—just know one thing: I love you very, very much.  I am always with you. I will never ever leave you.

9:50 am

Mom, I never realized how much the children on Earth are suffering.  If you only knew about the unheard cries of suffering children, you would be mind-boggled about what they are going through. There is illness, poverty, hunger, and abuse. I never realized how lucky I was to be loved and cared for.  

The children in heaven are watching over the children on Earth and represent the face of G-d.  We must do something for the children on Earth.

We must do more than what is being done now. The children on Earth are in a very deep need for hugs, smiles, and toys. We really need to think about how to help suffering children.

12:02pm

Conversation with Divine Mother ( Visit #7)

Mother is here, we need to talk
Heart to heart.
You are a mother regardless 

if your children are here or not.

You will always be a mother.
You were born to be a daughter.
And that is your destiny, my daughter,

I am a mother too.
I am a mother to every mother,
And everyone is my child.

Therefore I know your pain.
I feel it, I recognize it,

and I am with you.

The path of a mother is never an easy one,
And losing a child is the most challenging one,
To lose a child is the most crucial–
The most devastating way ever.

And yet, with all that in heart,
Your soul must know that nothing is lost,
Nothing is gone.

And  thinking is not a real help
It must bring you a comfort to know that he’s safe.
As mothers, we all want our children to be well.

Well… he’s well. He is bright. He is okay.
And yet your heart still does not have joy.

And that what we must change

 

In serving G-d,

In waiting for him,

We need to inject your heart.

The wounds must heal,

The void must be filled,

The voice must find a new song to sing

 

Your son is with you more than you ever knew,
Yes, he is energy now, but so is love and so is G-d
And so are you and everyone else.

My child, my daughter, I know,

I know in your heart
It’s pure love; I see you, I hear you,
I feel you my daughter, my love.

Please hear me say this again and again:

Your son is fine; he is okay,
He loves you, he watches you,
He hears every single word that you say,
And thoughts that you think.

Your son is not lost, or done, or gone.

That is only an illusion …

He is here, right next to you.
Have mercy on his soul
And please listen to him.

Please allow him to be in peace and harmony,
Please allow him to exist in love and serenity,
Stop your noise, nonsense, and fears.

He’s here, he is here, and he is here

Take control of your life,
Take control of your day,
Keep him in your heart,
Love him with your soul,

Bring him back to life with your smile and joy,
That is your task, this is your job,
This is your new life!

Your new life is about G-d,
Your new life is about joy,
Your new life is about love,
And living in harmony.

Live in harmony with G-d,
Live in harmony with your children,
Regardless where they are – above or below.

Live in harmony with nature,
Live in harmony with G-d’s will,
Live in harmony with your choices.

Just open your heart
And clear your mind,
Listen to your son
He is speaking.

(Now my son starts to speak)

Mom, I’m fine
I love you so deeply.
I’m sending you a kiss
Please forgive me
For such quick leave.

Mom I love you.
I will never leave you again.
Please learn to be with me in new ways
I am, mom, crying when you are crying
I’m happy when you are happy too.

Please mom, listen,
Please mom, accept
Please mom, have a strong faith.
What happened you and what happened to us?
Is done, is gone, and cannot be changed.

G-d has a plan; he has a will
Mom, please, accept his work, plan, and will
Mom, I am here and you are here

Enjoy our connection,
Enjoy our communication,
Enjoy what we still have.

Mom, I’m asking you

light up your heart,
I know it will take time,
But from here from above …I can see your pain and struggle

And I want to scream:
Mom, stop, stop, stop.
Mom, please learn how to live!

Enjoy harmony and feel appreciation
Of what you have. 

Mom, mom, mom…

Come close to G-d,
I will show and teach you,
But please stop torturing yourself
With going through that night.

I beg of you, my dearest mom,
Heal, heal, heal, to life
I love you, I love you, I love
Thank you for listening
–Your son

 

(Divine Mother speaks to me again)

Well mother, did you hear the plea of your son?

Do the duty of a mother –
Focus on the needs of a child,

His needs are clearly spoken
His will is clearly set
I know that is not simple
And yet…

Find your center
Find your strength
Find and connect to your Mother
Connect to your Inner Mother and bring her again

The more work is waiting
The more that needs to be done
The work of a Mother is never finished
The Mother is never done!

Pray in the morning
Pray at night
Ask G-d to give you directions,
On your new path

As a Mother – Mother of all,
Here are my words to you:

Take your time
Heal your soul
Open your heart
For new life and joy

Think of your children
Put their needs first
Love your journey
Accept your role

G-d is with you
Watching over you
And I – your Mother
Loving you.

I will come more
To help you to heal,
You are not alone
We sent you many angels.

Share your love with others –

So much more will come

Talk to your child –

Follow his messages from above

Stay with us -as we stay with you
Listen to us -as we listen to you
Respect us -as we respect you.

 

10:54am

My dearest mommy, I missed you so much. I know that you can hear me. When you write, I feel closer to you. I don’t even know who needs that closeness more, you or me. It is very difficult for me that we are not together on Earth.

I understand and I see and feel your pain and sorrow because we are not together, you will not be able to see me grow up, will not have any more birthdays, you will not be able to give me presents, and take pictures of me. That is all true.

That part—the sorrow—will always be with you. I know that you will always be searching for me around especially when you see a group of kids of my age and you will always be thinking of me and that is true.

That is very painful. You will have to go through a lot and you have so much still to learn and accept. But this is your path, mom.

This is your path. You cannot change your path.  It was designed just for you.  You can only change how you walk your path—as a broken human being or with your head held high.

This is it mom, this is your choice. Either go with dignity or as a broken dog.

Yes, maybe only now when you’re looking back, you finally see that from the very beginning, your path has not been simple. It will not get easier.  It doesn’t mean your path is a bad path; it’s just not a simple one.

Everything about you mom is not so simple or boring, but all that made you who you are. That is what molded you into the mother I have always loved and will always love.

It’s made you into someone people have always looked up to. You cannot imagine how many people are watching you now. So, mom, what are we going to do mom? How are we going to be? What are we going to do with our destiny?

If you, mom, who can see and speak with me all the time and is still greatly suffering, do you understand how unbearable it can be for those who cannot do that? Who is going to help them?

Who’s going to bring them light? Who is going to show them the way to go? Who, mom, who?

Who is going to walk them through the Desert of Death to life? Who is going to speak to them when their phones stop ringing? 

Who’s going to break the illusion that they have lost their children? 

Who do you think is praying for the planet and others? We are, mom, souls of the children who left the Earth and are very special.

Children are trying to save the planet.  Children are working very hard on Earth and in Heaven.

We children are observing the pain and transferring it to G-d as you once were. You don’t see everything mom, that is why you don’t understand many pieces of your life.

But now I can see everything and I will share with you my knowledge. Mom, my dearest mom, I don’t know what else to tell you and how is to help you.

Just remember that you were and are a great mom to me. Please get rid of your fears. No one knows what G-d’s plan is.

Your fear will destroy you. You have to think about life. You must think life. You must deal with life on its terms and time.

Do not fear, mom, trust. You will not be able to walk without trust or without Zero Degree of Deviation. When are you going to type that up?

When are you planning to start writing about the Universe and us? Mom, I love you so much and I am always with you, but at some point, you must start to heal yourself.

I can do just so much, but then it is up to you. Do you want to work together or not? But our work needs your trust or nothing will happen. Take your time and think about it. We will talk later.

9:26pm

Mom, it’s me, how are you? I really want to come back to you and make pictures together again, have our jokes, and play games together. You see, mom, how much we loved each other, that is why I need you to be healthy and happy. Do it for me.

If you cannot do it for yourself – do it for me!

I need you to be healthy. I want to see my mom and not the woman who lost her child.

First of all, you did not lose me. Second, you are my mom and not that woman.

Mom, you do not need to be strong—you are. What I need you to become is joyful.

Look at our picture, that’s what I always loved about you: your joy, your smile, and your warmth. Please bring that back. Bring back your light. Remember what you taught me.

I am in you, mom.  I am part of your soul, a part of your light.  Smile and you will give me life again.  Let me be your smile and your shining eyes. Do not hold me mom – let me shine through you! 

Think of me mom, love me mom. And let your soul shine like never before.

It is two of us now, mom, you and me. I am part of your soul, a part of your light.

 Let me shine through you…

I love you. Good night, mom, good night.