Mom, the path of the actual journey is spread throughout the Desert of Death. You cannot get to the peak of the mountain by avoiding the Desert of Death.

Only through the path that lies on the other side of the broken heart can you find the location of the hidden door. The last few steps to the peak of the mountain can be taken only through that door.

 Only the hearts that kept the fireplace going can open the door.

We thought that we could write our own lyrics. We thought that we could have our own plan for life. We thought that we were somebody and that if we wanted to gain control, we could.

We thought all that, but we thought wrong.

 

Both mercy and anger are rooted in love for us.

Both hands are to be kissed, blessed, thanked, and acknowledged.

As one hand gives, another takes.

As one hand hugs, another spanks.

As one hand protects, another guards.

One love, two hands.

Both hands belong to mother and father’s love.

Feeling this love,

Knowing this love,

Trusting this love,

Is like sitting on one chair.

• Zero Degree of Deviation prevents the existence of the second chair. The second chair represents the illusion of the physical world: the projection of fear, doubts, and false confidence. The second chair is a trap, full of emotional hooks, dependency, and limitations.

• The second chair represents the lies we were told. The second chair is the loss of authenticity and integrity. The second chair are the phone calls we did not return, promises we broke, and the fear that eats us and takes away our soul.

• The second chair is a confusing illusion and lie. The second chair does not have a soul and a connection to the source. The second chair is a projection of a confused mind.

• When the mind aligns with the heart and soul, the second chair cannot exist anymore.
  And since the second chair is an illusion, then we never had two chairs. We just didn’t know how comfortable it would be to sit on one chair. That is why we keep falling down, thinking we are falling between chairs.

• The truth is, we sit on the edge of one chair. When we learn to properly sit on one chair, then we stop looking for what is not there. Therefore we will stop falling down.

• The issue is that unfortunately there are not many teachers that can teach us this phenomenal paradox. However if we keep searching for balance and truth, we can learn it on our own as well.

• When we get tired of falling down, we will learn how to sit. We will be able to see the truth.
  It will take time and patience, but we will be guided. Whatever knowledge belongs to us will be given and delivered on time.

 

Note 1: When my son gave me the knowledge called Theory of Zero Degree of Deviation (ZDD, see Part 1) within a week of his shift, I was puzzled for months why he gave it that name. It took me several years to completely comprehend and embrace the fact that regardless how much is given to me by him, nothing will shift unless I act on it. The theory will remain a theory as long as it resides on the realm of ideas.

Let’s say I trust and think about the information given to me, but I do not act according to it. Then it loses its value. So people can have this information, but nothing will happen unless they actually act on it. But it’s freaking difficult to act on it. Do I know it?

I don’t know where you are at this moment, but in my case, my whole system was completely rewired as if my skeletal system was disassembled and reassembled again metaphorically speaking. Though my bones stayed the same, untouched, rearranged, but untouched, all the flesh was dissolved and was now given as a brand-new one due to the information provided to me. The knowledge that was given to me became my fascia. My second nature.

Yes! Yes! Yes! The idea, the information, the knowledge must become a myofascia (fascia) of our being that holds everything together. Just as the fascia of our physical body, it must become a supportive web, offering us such level of strength that we will be able to deal with anything that comes our way.

It was beyond painful and was a devastating process. How long does it take: four, five, eight years? I do not think that I am completely done even as I write these words now. It takes as long it takes. For each of us is a different path and a different number.

However, how long it takes is not as important as our constant moving forward. What truly needs to happen is a following within the process. It takes focus, will, and desire to follow the steps and to stay alive, then within time, you too will be able to sit on one chair firmly and content.

Here, being “content” means that the new structure of the hard bones and soft flesh have embraced each other, and there is no more war within. There is no more sitting between the two chairs. When a new structure is created, there is peace within that takes its place. Because having an idea and living an idea are two different things. 

The evolution of the human soul has no limits. Yes, we all would like to achieve something in a more harmonious way, but unfortunately, that is not the case. The collective soul of humanity is ill and losing its light, because you cannot feed someone with an idea. If someone is hungry, he/she needs bread and soup. Not an idea of bread and soup.

Now we live in a world of ideas, detached and virtual. New norm. Never known before.

Receiving a text message on our birthday versus visiting someone and/or at least calling and hearing a real voice became a norm. Acts of kindness are replaced by lectures and conversations about kindness. The gap between ideas and following thought on an idea is getting larger and larger. “Thinking of you” is replacing “I am here with you.” 

That’s why my son kept on saying, “Do do do, act act act, on the theory.” So when I acted on the theory of ZDD, it became my life. 

 

Whatever knowledge belongs to you will be given and delivered on time. Learn how to sit on one chair. Choose a chair!

Note 2: This is one of the most important messages too. Why? It is essential to trust that whatever we need to know will be given, and that will guide us.

How many times have I hung in the space of unknown? How many times have I been suspended in the air not knowing where to put my feet? Too many to tell, too many to remember . . .

I had to resist the temptation to do something. We have to wait for guidance. We should never do anything out of desperation.

 

Mom, we covered a lot today. Take a break. Rest. And keep that vision of the place you saw behind that hidden door alive and vibrant. That is our place, mom. That is our sacred garden.

You shall come and visit me in this garden so we can work.

Our work will take place not in the Desert of Death but in the Garden of Love—in paradise.

12:53 p.m.

My dearest mom, you are confused by your dreams and that is fine. You are going through heavy duty healing and many issues are going to pop up.

 

Note 1: Once in a while, I would go through a period of intense dreams and visions. Some would be clear and right to the point that is easy understand; however, others . . . not so much and not so fast. Those dreams and visions usually come as bulldozers and pour heavy blocks on me. They would be asking for lots of thinking and searching.

Some of them are extremely intense. Foretelling future. Given warning. Some of them are highly electrolyzed and are able to shake me to my core. At times, I wake up feeling as if a train just went over me. Just crushed.

Of course, in this project, I do share some visions that are related to the material, but not everything could be shared or should be shared. Also, there is no way I could share everything right away anyway. Having said that, this is what I want you to know and focus on.

The universe never stops working with us. Our subconscious is always in communication. The natural inclination of our psyche and of our body is to get well, heal, and be alive. So though we have thoughts of suicide and feel like our lives have no meaning anymore, there is a part of our life that wants to fight and wants to be healed.

During the night, our soul energy goes to the source and receives information necessary for our healing and then transmits dreams and visions to us. Therefore, every dream and vision we have during the night was given to us according to the needs of our healing. We just need to learn how to hear them, receive them, and apply them.

Basically those dreams and visions serve as a carefully measured and crafted medication for us to get well. Those dreams and visions can absolutely be essential to our healing and will help sustain our life.

Therefore, we need to be aware that with heavy-duty healing comes heavy-duty dreams and visions. We need to see the dreams and visions as healing properties. Do not fear them!

 

And this time, Mom, when so many kind of leadership falls, you must trust as never before our connection and our connection with Divine.

 

Note 2: This is the essence. I truly want you, my readers, to understand: that at a time of lies and deception, you still can connect to the truth. We can do that. For that to happen, first, trust yourselves, and second, trust and love the ones in the Realm of Truth. The dreams and visions are here to help us to connect to our own truth, learn and embrace it, and then share it with others. 

 

And whatever intrigues people are involved in, it doesn’t involve you. Human actions are not your concern. Paying attention to them is a very shallow perspective. As a matter of fact, their actions are just an another illusion and you must learn how to move through it without being hooked by them. 

 

Here is how you need to act:

• Know very clearly in your heart where you have to go. Listen to the voice that calls you and guides you. Just walk straight to that pulse or point of energy that calls your name.

• Go and walk over every obstacle, conflict, and challenge as if it is not there.

• Keep in mind that people do not have power over you. You need to do what you need to do.

• Treat everyone fairly and softly, but don’t get involved in personal conflicts. That is how they can stop you, hold you, and drug you.

• Say thank you for all the lessons they taught you along the way and then move on.

• You must learn to move beyond the nitty-gritties of emotional struggles.

• People who are in pain and/or  are at war within themselves will create pain and war for everyone else. You do not need to tolerate it, but you also do not need to succumb to that.

• The kindness of other people and/or lack of kindness is not a sign of who you are, but a true testimony of who they are.

• That is why the end goal is to really embrace the previous notion and be content with having Divine Love as the main source of love.

• Human love is restricted, so we should never make it our focus to attain that.

• If you are truly connected and really want to feel and to embrace the true source of love, then you will become free from ever needing any approval, love, or affection. Plus, you will be able to treat everyone with kindness, compassion, patience, and tolerance. Inside of you an eternal fireplace with the eternal flames of love will be installed.

• When you are warm and toasty inside, then you can illuminate and project your light onto others.

 

What is my role you may ask? The role, our role (meaning me, your star child) is to assure that your fireplace has enough wood to maintain the flames.

The children that are in heaven are direct providers and guardians of the fire that burns within their parents. The role of the parents is to recognize their inner fireplace and be willing to ignite the flame. 

Then children will provide the wood and safeguard the flame. That is where the mother and the child can be together again. That is where they can invite others to come in and get warm.

In a place of darkness or coldness, those fireplaces are very much needed.  Humanity as a whole is in wintertime now. Humanity is entering its wintertime.

That is why this information is needed right now. With parents like you and with the help of children like me, there is great potential for us to become that fireplace during winter for others.

And just like you, they too can have amazing and direct communication with the ultimate sources of love: light and warmth aka kindness. When the beat of the mother’s heart is in sync with her child’s heart, together they can create a vibration that allows them to connect with the heartbeat of the universe.

2:46pm

You see my dearest mom, as I said, whatever belongs to you will be delivered to you. Look you have an amazing new mattress, wonderful bedding, and great doctors, etc. They just walked into your life. The wave of the cosmic ocean brought that to your shore.

Do you see it? As we travel throughout our lives in the cosmic ocean of our destinies, what belongs to us is brought to shore. It also removes what doesn’t serve us anymore, sometimes as a warm and soft goodbye and sometimes as a wild destructive wind.

The ocean of our destinies does not always have calm waters for peaceful sailing.

We don’t always see or appreciate what is given and/or taken from us. In most cases, we are just blind. We act on what we know, but we truly cannot see what is what.

That is why Zero Degree of Deviation is so important. If you integrate my energy and my teachings more into your life, then you will see much deeper and clearer.

Please do not fear your dreams and visions, especially right now. You are going through a challenging time and your physical body is doing a lot of work. That affects everything else.

It also brings up old memories and old pain–the pain that was stuck inside you. Yes, yes, and yes, your body needs to be rewired, not fixed.

It will take time and you need to be patient. If you cannot walk, then don’t. I will tell you what to do and when.

Whatever belongs to you will be delivered to you. Whatever does not belong to you anymore will be taken away.

There is order in the Universe. The way you change or move your furniture is the same as when your energy gets reorganized, shuffled, or shifted.

Do not fear my dearest mom, do not fear. I will protect you and guide you. Now is not a time for actions or deeds. Now is a time for Reflection, Reorganizing, Rewiring. Now is a time for healing.

Do not look around and do not compare yourself with others. Others are neither your concern nor your margins. They cannot serve as benchmarks.

Your life runs on a different cycle and different timeline. There is no “should” or “should not’s.” You are exactly where you should be. You are exactly where you belong. Occupy this space more fully and be who you are.

Be more of us, you and me. Our energy will blend together. Do not miss me; embrace me!

I love you. I am here right next to you.

2:27 pm

My dearest mommy, I know I know I know. It is unbearable for you and that is why your body is in shock.

You can do it mom; you can do it. You can walk with me without touching me. You can walk with me and hold my hand in spirit.

Today is not an easy day. There is no support for you today or at least that’s how it feels to you, but I’m here mom.

 

7:00am

Whatever is due to you will find you. You were washed away and get taken by the wave of G-d’s hand. Now the hand that took you away from the place where you were comfortable and knew so well will bring you to another shore.

You cannot be in the ocean forever. At some point, you will be brought to the shore, dropped to the bottom of the ocean, or transformed into an ocean being.

The way you were taken by the ocean will change you forever. Mom, you cannot go anywhere yet. You must trust the waves. The waves of changes.

You need to take care of your health. You are in pain. You are a mess. You cannot skip this step. You are not late for anything. You are where you must be.

Yes, this is not what you have envisioned for yourself, but this is the right place for you now. If you cannot accept what is in front of you, you will not be able to move forward. You will be stuck here and you will drown.

• Yes, this is your Life today.
• You cannot miss or escape your destiny. Let it come to you.
• Whatever belongs to you, will be given to you. Whatever belongs to you will find you.
• Fight for your life.
• Whatever belongs to you will be delivered to you.

2:24pm

Mom, this life, the life you see in pictures and the pictures you keep on your table do not exist anymore. The table that was covered with a cloth where many of us sat behind in body and spirit can now only be in spirit. That is why it feels very lonely to you. The dinner table without us creates deep pain in your heart.

The life that does not exist anymore is safely stored in the past. That is in the past and that is where it belongs—in the storage of memories. You, mom, are here in body and spirit. This is your moment. This is your time in this world of action and deeds. This is where fights are formed. You must fight for your life.

First of all, you must depart from the life that does not exist anymore. Crying and wishing will not bring it back.

You, mom, have to face what is. Hiding in pain is not going to help. You never were the kind to hide; you always fought.  That is who you are.

So mom, take a deep breath and embrace your life as it is and not as you wish it to be. There is a gap between your wishes and what the Divine wishes for you.

If you stay inside your wishes, you will be frozen in the past. If your will is both here in the present and there in the past, you will be swallowed by the gap. Therefore, if you cross over to the reality of what is, you will free yourself to the future.

Although the past may be painful, we want to hold on because it’s familiar territory. The future does not have the safety net of familiarity. The future does not hold anything you know.

The future does not hold anything you know, however the future is a reminder that there is a path for you and that you are loved. It might be that everyone around you loved you. It might be that every door slammed in your face.

It might be that you were rejected and neglected time and time again by people you loved the most. You might think that your life is not worth anything. It might be that you are very sick and tired of pain–pain in your body, heart, and soul.

The future does not hold anything you know, however the future is a reminder that there is a path for you and that you are loved.

It might be that this is all true and all this exists.  In the end, only Divine Providence knows the value of our lives and you must trust that your life, regardless how painful, has tremendous value.

You, mom, survived the abuse from your family and did not become angry or mean and no matter how much darkness was covering you, you remained iridescent.

So yes, mom, your life means a lot, but it would mean even more so if you moved to the future and moved forward 100% without looking back.

If you let everything rest, take whatever is given to you, and make the best of it, then the future will welcome you as you welcome it as well.

The life you had mom, does not exist anymore. The way your life existed is no more. The way we use to be does not exist anymore.

The chapter is closed. The last phrase, the last sentence, has been written. The last dot is about to be placed. Add the dot, mom. Add the dot, mom. Then take a moment and celebrate what has been written and give yourself a hug.

But then, mom, turn the page. Turn the page. Then start to write a new chapter. In this new chapter, allow me to be the ink. Allow me to be a part of the process. Allow me to flow through you.  Allow me to be with you in every breath and every heartbeat. Respect your life; respect the breath.

Respect yourself. Love yourself. Remember yourself. Fight for yourself. Listen to me and do not allow anything or anyone to tell you anything different than that. I love you mom; you are very much loved. You matter and your life matters. You are wanted and sought for.

You are the best mom I ever had and the best friend I needed. I want to be with you. I am with you. Walk with me into the future and leave everyone and everything behind.

We will be talking soon and more. Just know that for today:

• You are loved.
• The life you had before does not exist anymore.
• The future is waiting for you.
• Draw a square. Here is the place where you shall put your last dot when you are ready.  That is the end of that entry. The chapter is completed. 

 

3:44pm

Hi my dearest mommy, what is going on again? It is very difficult for you to carry this weight, but what can we do? We did not choose that for ourselves. Therefore, why do we need to punish ourselves or feel guilty about something that is not under our control?

There is only one true power that governs the world.  We don’t see it. We don’t understand or comprehend this power fully. It was not given to us before and will not be given to us now.

Our knowledge will always be limited.  Why is nothing guaranteed? We do not know when or what kind of knowledge will be given. The only thing we need to know is that we don’t know. We don’t know anything for sure. Everything is a subject to change. That is why every morning when we wake up, we have the opportunity to start all over again. 

I love you, mom, more than I can say. You want to know the truth? Let me tell you something.

Life is not going to get easier. So many changes are coming. So many shifts are on the way. Humanity as a whole will face something it has never faced before. The borders will shift. The nations will stop its previous existence.

It will not happen over night, but it will happen. What you need to know is that we are watching over you and protecting you. So regardless how wild the ride is, please stay calm and know that I am right next to you.

Please stay strong; please stay calm. Allow changes to take place without sweeping you away. Remember that whatever is due will be delivered to you. Whatever belongs to you will find you. Stay calm. Stay content. Stay loving and beautiful as I always remembered.

I love you. I miss you. I am always around you forever and ever.

7:20am

I know, mom, that being relaxed does not come easy to you, but you will learn how to slowly.

Can you imagine living a life without any worries and be fully content with what is? Can you imagine having a soul that is calm and rested?

To know what you need to know and not wanting or needing to know beyond that—can you imagine being this way? Can you imagine waking up today knowing all your needs is provided and everything moves as it should? Well, that is already the case.

Those days of turbulence are behind you. Those days of struggles are gone. Those feelings of anger and sadness are no more. How is that possible? Simple.

When all are in alignment with Heaven, than darkness is behind us. Then we have a new dawn, a new day and life. The most important part is that we are in it together and you will be safely sleeping in my arms from now on.

Not a single cloud shall pass over your head from now on. You will be okay mom, there is nothing you need to do beyond what moves you.

I know that you are not feeling well and sometimes feel like you’re dying, but do not fear. Just let it pass through you. Just know that I am with you. Just do want you want to do and go moment by moment.  Just try not to wait for anything. Do not wait. What is due will find you.

What is due will find you!!!

What is due will find you. When it happens, you will know it is yours. You will know it is a G-d’s plan for you. Whatever is due to you will be paid in full.  What you thought or felt before about the things that belonged to you is not real; sometimes things that you thought were never yours is or will be yours. What is yours will never skip you and you will never skip it.

The shipment of G-d’s plan will be delivered to you night and day, sun or rain. It will be yours. You may like it or not, but it will be presented to you and reveal itself to you.

Whatever is yours will find you.

Every phone call, email, and promotion will find you. Every dollar and every cent will find you. Every friend and foe will find you.

Every child that you shall mother and every soul you shall nurture will find you. Every illness and recovery will find you.

Everyone who you shall meet, you will meet.  Every book you’re destined to read or write will find you. And that is the law of G-d’s plan. You cannot miss it or escape it.

What is due to you will be paid in full.

So don’t be fooled thinking that you are missing something or someone. You can’t and you will not. So relax, don’t sweat.

Do not think that something is missing in your life. Whatever is due will find you when time is right. And if you are not getting something, than it was not yours from the start.

So turn your face, mom, and repeat after me :

What is mine will be mine. What is not is not mine. What is due to me will come to me. What is not mine will not come to me.

Look in my eyes and say it:

• G-d has a plan for me and it is not for me to judge or reject.
• G-d has a plan for me that I must learn to accept and embrace.
• G-d has a plan for me that I cannot change.
• What is written or spoken will be done with or without my willingness and/or agreement.
• G-d has a plan for me and it may not feel kind, fair, right, because I do not see the whole picture.
• I am on a voyage across dimensions, times, and realms. I am the passing force; this is not my home. When I complete G-d’s plan, I will go home.
• My soul can get tired. My heart can be broken, but the spirit of love that shines from above will sustain and carry me through times of turbulence, upheavals, tests, and sorrow.

The spirit of my son, the spirit of the source, will feed my soul and fulfill my heart. G-d has a plan for me and whatever is due will find me.