Alone amidst the ruins
4:58pm Hi, my dearest mom, how are you feeling today? Welcome back home. I know it must be very lonely without my brother and me. I know how much you loved to hug and kiss me. I still miss that a lot. The physical connection was great and it...
8:39 p.m. Note: After coming back to Israel, I was not able to see my son as clearly as I did there. At some point, I became fearful and even paranoid that I would forget my son and would not remember how he feels and how he smells. I...
11:11 a.m. Note: After all the experiences I went through, I could not see my son’s departure as death. So words like “cemetery,” “death,” “loss,” and other similar words that mean a permanent end are not used in my vocabulary. I absolutely could not utilize vocabulary that described physical...
12:25pm Hi my dear mommy, Happy Rosh Hashana to you with many blessings from above. I prayed and prayed for all of you yesterday and for the whole world that suffers so much pain. We absolutely need Divine intervention; intervention is coming. Yes, the economy will sink even more...
10:05 a.m. Note 1: When my son physically left me, it created a vacuum. There was no need to do anything for anyone. Being accustomed to taking care of others all my life, suddenly I was faced with the fact that I have to take care of myself only....
12:35pm Hi mommy, long time since we’ve talked. I know it was really hard for you the last week. What can I say, mom? Hang in there. The time for changes is here. The political and economical situation in US will be changing rapidly. Quite soon, people will see...
9:11 a.m. Hi, my dearest mom. I’m so glad you are much calmer today. This makes it easier for me to approach and talk to you. Note: Once again, he pinpointed that my emotions played a tremendous role on when and how he was able to approach me. We...