Alone amidst the ruins
3:16pm Hi, my dear mom. Wow, you have a new notebook. Don’t be scared of the black cover. It will become the most healing of all notebooks. I know that sometimes you question yourself whenever I share with you something very important and whether or not what you...
Hi my dearest mom, Here is the seventh lunar month since my freedom. I know this may sound harsh to you, but this is the truth. Our bodies are so limited and restricted. Plus, all the pain, aches, and emotions—oh yes, emotions—are human electricity or the source of human...
9:45am Hi, mommy. It’s already been seven months. Time flies very fast on Earth but here it feels like it has only been a mini second. There, where you are, everything feels longer and more difficult. Here, time does not exist. I have to say that’s amazing. The concept...
1:52 p.m. Note 1: My tears flow from a river that is broken by a sudden fall at the end of its path. At the bottom, there is nothing but rocks covering a body of water. It might be that the water represents our human tears breaking down the...
10:38 a.m. Note: My son was born on December 5. As his 19th birthday approached, I was stuck in a state of shock, not knowing how to deal with this coming event. Around that time, I faced another crisis. On one hand, I fully and entirely understood that the...
1:05 p.m. Note: Once in a while, I would face hurtful comments from people who did not understand the grief, pain, and devastation that go with a shift of child. I don’t remember the exact comments, at least not all of them, but I noticed that it was affecting...
Mommy, mommy, you’re falling down again. You need to focus on yourself and your needs. Do not focus on those you do not have a connection with. I’m going to help you. I’m going to be with you. It’s okay to think about yourself. It’s okay to focus on...