12:50am
Hi, my dearest mommy,
We did not talk for a very long time. I know you felt terrible and were broken down into pieces. That is why I’m begging you not to rush.
I beg of you, mommy, do not rush. Everything else can wait, but you can’t. You must put yourself as number one.
Sleep, eat, write—do whatever brings you nurturance and serenity. Drop all the worries and everything else that decreases your energy.
Think about yourself and nobody else. Do it for me, do it for us. Do it for our future work. Stop making yourself busy and crazy.
You do not need any distractions in your life. You do not owe anyone anything, but you do owe it to yourself.
Please take care of yourself so one day you will return to that horse. For now, clean yourself of all energetic parasites. Please get well. Rebuild your body. Restructure your soul. Redesign your life.
Let Divine Providence heal your heart and fill all those cracks and empty spaces with wisdom and understanding.
Try to pick only one thing and follow through. I love you mom. I hear you mom.
Remember me as I remember you. Remember we are so much alike. Remember that part of me was from you.
Don’t let anyone push you down. I love you. I am always with you. I need you.
I need you to get well. I need you to live. I need you to talk to me. I need you to listen to me.
Listen my dearest mom: you are loved, protected, nurtured, heard and being watched and guided. Heaven hears you. Heaven loves you. Heaven will respond in your dreams and visions.
Do not fear; do not worry. Do not doubt.
Hear. Trust. Accept. Follow.
I love you. I miss you.
~Your son.
