Shed Your Guilt

10:43am 

Excerpt:

Another month Mom, another moon month and you feel it. You really do. Every month you feel it before anyone else.  The true beauty in the world is concealed, Mom.  The true beauty is hidden and must be discovered. The true beauty must be hidden, sealed, and protected. Why?

Unfortunately is in the human nature: to break, destroy, kill, possess, and to desire for themselves.  If beauty is destroyed, than the power of beauty is decreased. That is why it must remain hidden. Only those truly attracted and want to protect it and wish to better themselves will keep searching and looking for a true beauty–for a true beauty within.

A beautiful poem hides in the wrinkles of pain and the depth of a tear and between the wide-open space of a page and sharp edge of a pen.

A beautiful painting hides in the shadow of a tree, in a fallen leaf, in the sound of a waterfall, the movement of butterfly wings, and it hides in the heaviness of the rock at the bottom of the mountain and in the lightness of the brush. 

Between the strokes of the hand and an empty canvas, there is a space that hides in the music of the wind. And one day, the music of the wind will strike us with uncontrollable desire to search and search and bring to life the beauty that was always there in the cold whiteness of an empty canvas.

Then we’ll search and search for that beauty, not because we want to, but because we must. It drives us into sleepless nights and restless days till we finally capture it.

The beauty of the heart and soul–how many times has it been broken to pieces? The beauty of laughter comes with the painful price of having the natural ability to laugh.

So yes, beauty is concealed, but you do not need to hide from me.  I am not the danger. If you had a good day or two, do not fear.  If a smile touched your face again, do not run away.

I want you to stand up and walk out from hiding. Do not fear. You are strong enough now to protect it. You do not need to push it back as I will stand with you and guard you.

My mother, I will protect you, do not fear.  So break your walls and come out. Smile and laugh and have a great time when it’s due.

Because my body is in the ground does not mean that yours must be too.  We, you and I, are strong in our love and spirit.

Would you not want for me what I want for you, would the story be in reverse?  Then why are you feeling so guilty about having new friends and enjoying old ones?

Because my body is in the ground does not mean that your soul should die. Because my body is in the ground, your soul must dance with mine.

Yes, it sounds crazy, but it’s true.  Yes I’m free and at home waiting for you, celebrating your love, beauty, and grace.  Because my body is in the ground, I am okay and you must be okay too.  I know you do not see it yet. I know you do not feel it yet.  You just have a glimpse of it and that is fine, but Mom, I am asking you to drop the guilt, the hiding act, the fear, the suffering, and the pain.

My body is in the ground. That is why I speak to you with no limitations. Expand your views, transcend your values, and believe and trust me, your son and knight in shining armor. I will protect you. 

I will protect you—enjoy our laugh and connection. I will protect you. This life is yours.  Till last breath, it is yours.  Till last smile, it is yours.

Face the day with a smile and sparkles in your eyes. I will protect you. Leave the heavy baggage behind you. I will protect you.

Speak at your will and pull out your heart and soul. I will protect you.

Use your G-d-given skills and gifts without fear or hesitation. I will protect you. I will protect you night and day. I will protect you. I will never leave you.

And yes, another month. And yes it may feel that we are farther apart.  That is an illusion.  With every month that passes by, we grow closer and closer. I will protect you.

Do not hide. Go, be, smile, and breathe. I will protect you. I am here. I am here.

My body is in the ground but I am here. My body is in the ground but I am stronger than ever.  My body is in the ground but my love is in the air and in the room. Can you not feel it? Can you not see it?

Do not give up on us, Mom. Do not give up on us. Keep the fireplace warm and toasty. Keep up your light Mom and do not allow anyone to dim it. No one.

Fight for your light. Fight for your life. I will protect you.

Do not fear the movement of the time. Do not fear the changes of the season. Do not fear the gray slowly covering your hMy-iPad-Retina-Wallpaper-HD-Space-fantasy-world-thumbair.

Do not fear your winter. Do not fear the aching pain, the bodily struggles, and health issues. Do not fear the physicality of life. I will protect you.

Do not fear what tomorrow may bring.  Do not fear that you will be alone. Do not fear life.  I will protect you.

Do not fear what will happen to the project. Do not fear if you have enough to survive.  Do not fear all this, all that, beyond, below, and above. Do not fear. I will protect you.

Release your guilt because you just smiled. Release your smile because you just cooked a nice meal. Release your guilt because you did not wake up five times during the night. Release your guilt because today you look good.

Shed your fear, wipe your guilt.  Focus on your grace; focus on our love. Focus on us, on me, and divine energy.

Yes another month is here. Yes another full moon above you.  Yes, your time is shifting away. That is why DO NOT FEAR G-D WILL PROTECT US.

Shed your fear, wipe your guilt.

My body is in the ground but my soul is alive.  Your body will be in the ground but your soul will be next to mine. Think about Soul Journey. Think about Soul Life. 

Think today about our soulful connection.  Think about our eternal bond and smile at any fears or doubt or guilty feelings that you are still have about fighting battles and doing deeds with me in soul and spirit and you in body and spirit.

We are the same one, Mom. We are united.  I love you so.

Fear you not. We are protected by the divinity of love.

Go with your day. See the full moon. Be that full moon and reflect to the world the shining light of Mother-Child love. 

Remind the world of the beauty of the child, the beauty of a true mother, the beauty of labor that is concealed in every minute of the day in hugs and smiles, the conversation at the dinner table, the dignity of family, and the integrity of loyalty and care. 

Be that Mom, be that reflection that reminds us that the smallest things hide the biggest meanings. Be that full moon, that soft light, in darkest night. The amber soul—the amber moon.

I love you my Amber Mom—mother of celestial boy. The mother of angel boy—my mother. I love you Mom and I need you to go.

We will talk again. My dearest Mommy, my Amber Moon, I will protect you. 

–Your son forever. I love you, Mom.